A SITUATION really had me in my feelings recently.

I was almost to a point where I chose to do something that I would definitely have to repent for. You know what I mean? You’re just so hurt and so mad; you never thought you’d return to this feeling, to a point of tasting revenge… But knowing you shouldn’t do whatever your flesh was telling you to do. I just wanted to do me!

LISTEN, I WAS PISSED!!!! I’d been in this situation before, wishing there was something I could do, but feeling like my life was just rolling by scene by scene as I sat there watching it, paralyzed.

Anyway, I simmered with that hurt and anger over the course of a few days and today, God sent a word. The word EXPEDIENT rang deep in my spirit (convenient and practical, although possibly improper or immoral) Immediately, I knew that just because I was feeling some type of way and wanted to act on my emotions, God was trying to show me something. I’m like, God, can I just act out this time PLEASE…Oh don’t be fake and act like you haven’t just wanted to get away with a little revenge and then go back to doing the right things… 

So I read 1 Corinthians 6 and my toes were stepped on.. This passage says a lot, but  Verses 12-15 grabbed me. Paul was speaking to open immorality that was plaguing the church – Much like the body of Christ today. I read this in a few versions, just to get a full understanding of what was being said. The Message version was so straight up, I felt like I’d been slapped:

¹² Just because something is technically legal doesn’t mean that it’s spiritually appropriate. If I went around doing whatever I thought I could get by with, I’d be a slave to my whims. ¹³ You know the old saying, “First you eat to live, and then you live to eat”? Well, it may be true that the body is only a temporary thing, but that’s no excuse for stuffing your body with food, or indulging it with sex. Since the Master honors you with a body, honor him with your body! ^14-15 God honored the Master’s body by raising it from the grave. He’ll treat yours with the same resurrection power. Until that time, remember that your bodies are created with the same dignity as the Master’s body. You wouldn’t take the Master’s body off to a whorehouse, would you? I should hope not.

Okay!!!!! I get your point Lord. I could have gotten a few minutes of revenge therapy BUT! Who am I living for? Who am I representing? Who am I blogging about, singing about, preaching about? Y’all, our witness cannot be destroyed because the enemy is busy. That’s his job! He’s faithful to his cause and we’d better learn to be faithful to the cause of Christ if that’s what we profess. It’s hard not to react or respond to the spirit that some people operate in; Shoot, that WE operate in sometimes if we keep it real! We have to daily commit ourselves to honoring God with everything we do: How we deal with and treat other people; how we react and respond to offenses and being wronged. We have got to get it. I have got to get it… Lesson learned.

God, forgive me for acting as if this thing was bigger than you; for giving it more attention than I gave you in that moment. Help me to focus on your promises to me, on your power that works in me; the same power that raised Jesus from the dead, the same power that gives me victory over any situation. God I pray for the person reading this now; endow them with more of your spirit and help them to remember that no situation trumps your love for us, your ability to pull us through whatever we face, even if it threatens to make us back track. Thank you for loving us in spite of the things we could do and decide to do, just because we want to, without giving your will for us any thought. Thank you for having a love that covers ALL our sins. I surrender to you God, I can’t, I won’t go backwards.. In Jesus’ name I pray and count it done, Amen.

T~